What Path Will You Choose?

circleoflife3I have been very mindful this week of relationships.  As I look at all my present relationships and past relationships, I see a pattern in my life.  It does not matter where we come from or who raised us.  We all have patterns in our lives.  I am sure you have heard the expression, “The Circle of Life.”  I don’t know about you, but my life represents more of a zig zag pattern than an actual circle.  Maybe the circle is the beginning and the end of life, but does not count what is in between.  I have had many relationships in my life.  Some have been edifying, encouraging, loving and caring.  I have also hadzigzag1 relationships that were hurtful, damaging and deceitful.  All relationships lead us down particular paths in life.  Don’t get me wrong though, whether a path is chosen or is traveled out of naivety, each person is still responsible for the path they have taken.  In any damaging relationship, negative thoughts of, “I am not good enough…”, “They don’t care anyway…” or “I am only hurting myself…” constantly plague the mind.  In cases of naivety, thoughts including, “I need to do this so I am loved…”, “If I do this I won’t be left…” or “They love me and would never hurt me…” beawareswirl just as often.  We have all been somewhere on this spectrum in our personal relationships.  Some may choose to believe deceitful things they are told about themselves or a situation, which leads to unhealthy paths being followed.  I am asking you to be WATCHFUL!  Be AWARE! Lookwatchful-eyes around you!  Who is in your life today?  Is it someone edifying, walking down a healthy path?  Or, is it someone who continues to walk and/or lead you down a destructive path?
You are better than this.  There is a firm foundation you can stand on so the zig zagging in life will stop.  The destructive road can be your past.  Isn’t it time to walk in relationshipsfirm-foundation-2 that are edifying, caring, loving and healthy?  We all crave those relationships.  We are not meant to live in this world alone.  We have Someone greater Who loves us and Who will lead us where He wants us to be.  This relationship will teach us about the true joy and true peace.  Sound great?  I think so too!  Please call.  We are here, looking forward to guiding you to your firm foundation!
In Him we have the greatest joy…the sweetest peace…the highest hope!
Have a blessed day!

Do you want to be with the cockroaches?

hiding1I was preparing a lesson on darkness and the light and this came to my mind.   I usually wait until the end of a lesson to ask such questions, but I think it is important to get this one out in the open now!  Are you in thehiding3 darkness?   What are you hiding from?  Are you secure and happy with your secrets in the darkness or are the lies catching up with you?
I have a great analogy about darkness and light that I want to share.  You are in the darkness with your secrets and lies.  What happens when you are exposed by the light?  Oh no, I am caught!  What do I do now?  This reminds me of an apartment my husband and I lived in when we first married.  I know bugs are common, but thankfully I was not exposed to them on the inside of my childhood home.  Anyway, my husband and I were so excited to get our first place and start our new life.  One night though, in the middle of the night, I turned on the light to go to the bathroom.  To my horror, there were what seemed like cockroach2hundreds of cockroaches crawling around.  I mean, let’s be real….cockroaches are nasty and they leave nasty droppings everywhere!  They were crawling all over the bathroom mirror, sink, countertop and anywhere else you can imagine.  Needless to say, I screamed!  I quickly turned the light off and went to my new, great protector that was supposed to make everything better…my husband!  Its no surprise, however, that I could not sleep that night.  In fact, there were many nights in the future I could not sleep because all I could see were the bugs crawling around in the dark.  Even worse, I would imagine that when I turned on the light, they would be exposed and I would have to see them in great numbers!  Gross!!!!!
truth4All laughs aside though, when we live in the darkness with our lies and secrets, we chance them being exposed like the cockroaches in my first apartment.  They multiply, grow, get bigger and eventually overtake us.  We are so deep in the dark we cannot even see them for what they are!  When people approach us, hounding us and asking questions because our lies are not matching up, we think we are so lies1clever because we come up with another lie to cover up the last.  We do not want to see the light!  And if we are being honest with ourselves, we definitely do not want people to see all the cockroaches we have hidden in the darkness.
Do not be discouraged though friends!  I know of a Light…a great Light of peace, joy and tranquility.  You can be open and honest.  You do not have to stay in the dark with the bugs…you do not have to come up with new lies to cover the old.  Be completely honest with yourself just this once…are you tired yet?  The Light you can be light1shown does have its challenges, but the indescribable rewards far outnumber the challenges, which are a wonder to behold.  Please contact us at Recovery Through Rediscovery.  We want to help you find the Light, help you exposelight2 everything in your own darkness so you don’t have to hide anymore.  No more secrets!!!  I know it sounds good!  So, why don’t you give it a try?!  I know what you are doing now is not working but, if by some small chance it is…someday the light will come on.  The light always comes on.  I know Who and What the true Protector is and I want to share.  I look so forward to hearing from you soon.  Contact us ANYTIME!!
~Blessings

Let the Sun Shine…

clouds2I look up to the sky all the time.  I have always felt a sense of peace and tranquility looking up to the sky.  The puffy, white clouds are my favorite because I enjoy seeing the masterpieces God makes of them.  Looking up, there are so many beauties and masterpieces being made every day in the sunrises and sunsets.  Even when storms build and approach, the sky has it’s own sense of beauty.   The colors portrayed in all of the various views are breathtaking.  I have seen colors in the sky that I have never seen elsewhere.
clouds7When my children were small, we would lay in the yard and look up to the sky to see what masterpieces the clouds were making.  We saw sharks, boats, fish, cars, anything and clouds6everything.  I have since had the opportunity to pass this on to my grandchildren.  Last week while driving my elderly mother to our home, she even started to talk about the masterpieces she saw.   I would venture to say my mom is the one who taught me to look up and see the beauty.  I am so thankful she did.
As humans we always find something about ourselves that we do not like.  Our height, weight, nose, teeth, hair, we’re too fat, too skinny or whatever we come up with!  All of the insecurities with our outward appearance affect our inner beauty.  I often wonder why we are so insecure because of our beauty.  In reality, we were made exactly how we wereclouds1 meant to be made.  Sadly, culture has taught us we have to be this way or that way, which throws us all into a whirlwind of insecurities.  Life is hard enough already!  For some reason, society adds further hardship by creating these vanity-fueled standards we are supposed to live up to.
One thing that triggers an immense amount of compassion and empathy within myself is the lost sight within others of their own beauty clouds3when lost in the world of addiction.  The storm clouds swirling around them continue and from the rain they feel as though they are drowning.  Just beyond the storm clouds though, there is a sun wanting to rise or set but it cannot be seen from all the darkness.  The beauty that is so bright is trying to come out, but with the developed insecurities from the journey of life it cannot be seen.  There is beauty all around us.  We are God’s masterpiece.   Walking around in shame, guilt, fear, confusion or turmoil will keep us blinded.  We on the outside of the storm can see the sun peaking through wanting to shine fully.  We can see your true beauty.  We are waiting for you to take a small peak and we will be here waiting for you.
Now is the time to become the masterpiece you were created to be.  Find your true beauty and stop hiding behind the dark skies in life.  The sun is there ready to shine and so are cross6you.
Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece.  He created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.
Blessings

Avoiding The Sting…

wasp2This weekend, I watched my husband diligently declare war on a big wasp nest around our home.  I laughed at him as he shot the wasp spray then ran inside the screened porch in fear of being attacked and stung.  He sprayed under the siding where the nest was located, along with any lingering wasps flying in the area.  The wasps that were not hit flew around trying to get back to the nest to see what was going on.  Some of the wasps inside came pouring out to freedom, but others did not make it past coming out before falling to the ground, not able to withstand the contents of the can.
As I was watched the wasps, I realized addiction can affect our lives in much of the same way.  Some of us are around the outside, never having experienced addiction and the chaos it creates.  Some of us have been addicted, hitting the ground never to find our way up wasp4again.  Some have had  addiction in their lives and have found freedom from the destruction.  Unfortunately though, there are still so many out there who are searching for freedom from addiction, but do not know where to turn.  To those who have never known anyone who suffers from addiction or experienced the chaos addiction can cause, I am happy for you.  To those who have lost loved ones to addiction, I am so sorry for your loss.  To those who are still in the throes of addiction-fueled chaos and are searching for freedom, I understand where you are and where you want to go.  Sometimes we can be so caught up in our current positions in life, we become afraid of what might be.  Just as the wasps kept flying around trying to get back to what they are familiar with (their home and security), we can behave similarly with our choice of remaining in chaos.  In the midst of the chaos, we wasp5inadvertently become blind to the freedom that is right outside of the storm surrounding us.  We repeatedly go back to what we feel secure with and where we feel home is.  Leaving behind and learning to live life without the false security we have built our life around is hard to do.  Without the right guidance and help, we can find ourselves going back and forth, in and out of addiction.  This is an all too common and very vicious cycle.
Regardless of where we are in life, we all have felt some sort of chaos.  The team at waspendingpictureRecovery Through Rediscovery is here and ready to serve you, to help guide you through your journey to freedom.  We will help you conquer your fears and realize the joy and peace that is waiting on the other side.  Please, call us and make that first step!
Blessings

Diggin’ In The Dirt…

dirtphoto7I love working in the dirt.  The weeding, sweating and making things look clean and beautiful is incredible to me.  I had the opportunity to work with my dad yesterday in a flower garden that was well overgrown with multitudes of different flowers, bushes, trees, bugs and vines.   As we were cleaning out the flower garden and taking breaks due to the heat, we had some time to talk.  We discussed a range of things from the flower garden to addiction and healing as well as sickness, death and family.  Honestly, when I got to the garden I thought, “I really do not want to do this because it is so hot and humid,” but my dad came over to help and I could not turn him down.  What a wonderful person he is and what a wonderful day I had with him.  After we got done, I was so thankful I did not turn away the help, as the garden looked clean and beautiful.  There were also a lot of wonderful words spoken between he and I.
I used to harbor things within, thinking I could do it all on my own.  Each time I was hurt, Iwalls2 would keep things in more and more in order to build a wall of protection around myself.  The wall got so tall and so thick, I became blind.  I continued allowing myself no feelings and ignoring pain that I endured as a child.  Therefore, I brought this behavior into adulthood and even in raising my children.  Holding on to and not processing my hurts in childhood ultimately left me unequipped later on in life when stressful or unfavorable situations arose.  Through my journey, however, I learned to face my past pain and most importantly, to keep my wall down and feel walls1joy, peace, happiness, pain, sadness, frustration and yes even anger.  Life is hard and full of choices.  I have made good choices and I have made bad choices.  That is okay because I have turned my life around and I am keeping the wall down, facing life ONE DAY AT A TIME.  It is NEVER too late!  I have learned it is so important to lean on the people in my life to help me get through the hard times and help me in my time of need.
As the sweat poured and the digging continued I could not help dirtphoto4but think of Someone else in the garden who was sweating blood praying the cup would pass from Him.  Again, I am so thankful He did not leave the garden and stayed there for me.  He stayed to make us clean and beautiful.  With Him staying, we are able to learn how to live this life to get to the next.  We are human and in our humanness we are given forgiveness, joy and peace.  We can daily speak with Him of our trials and tribulations.  Let us be mindful of our walls and lets knock them down!  We are here for you at Recovery Through Rediscovery.  We want to hear from you and help you tear down your wall, getting rid of the addiction that clings to you so tightly.  Learn how to live with the joy and peace we are promised.
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Lost & Searching…

lost2Have you ever lost anything? Anything at all? Well, this morning was my morning to lose something! I spent an hour and half this morning looking for keys that I had misplaced. Yes, I was late leaving to get where I needed to be. I called my husband asking him if he had seen them. I was told nicely I need to make sure I put things back in their proper place. Thinking to myself, I thought I did! Frustration, anger at myself for misplacing them, humiliation with admission of misplacing the keys and bewilderment of what to do were soon the emotions that were taking over. I still have not found them but gave up my search. I was running around in circles from one place to another looking for them, not once but several times I would lost5look in the same spot. This made me take a step back and put perspective on the many “real people” who are lost and searching and not just on the set of keys. Real people, real family members who are searching for loved ones that are in the throes of addiction.

To be lost means to be unable to find one’s way, not knowing one’s whereabouts, going around in circles. I could not help but remember I have been in this place in life. Totally lost, going in circles of controlling, lost3trying to fix things and trying to find my child who was lost in addiction. I began the search of looking everywhere to try and find the answers. The life lessons of pain, joy, and peace I found through my journey has made me understand there is Another who is in full control. I have been told the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Well, during this time in my life this word fit me to a tee. What is ironic is that I was looking for someone who was lost and then I realized I myself was lost. Through my journey I experienced the same things as I did this morning such as anger, frustration, lost1humiliation, and bewilderment. I was so lost living the life of insanity that I could not find the path to get me out. When I was searching for my keys this morning I was reminded of how lost I was just a few short years ago. I might have given up the search for my keys this morning, but thankfully I did not give up the search God was leading me on. He started helping me find the lighted path by putting people in my life to help guide me, teach me, showing me the power of prayer, the encouragement of journaling and trusting Him.

Misty Morning PathwayCan you relate to losing something in life? Are you searching and cannot find your way to the lighted path? Are you lost in addiction or do you have a family member lost? We are ready to serve you or your family member today! You have found a way through Recovery Through Rediscovery! Our team is ready to help, please reach out!!

Traveling A Different Direction…

The dictionary defines courage as the ability to do something that frightens one.courage8 HOPE gave me the COURAGE to turn my life around. Through controlling everything around me I developed some bad habits. Bad habits that I didn’t even realize until my true journey began. I started with one layer and guess what? More came!! Was I scared to turn? ABSOLUTELY!   I had thoughts of doubt in my head because there was so much involved. Believe me…there was DEFINITELY more courage6than one time of doubt internally, can we say 100 times of doubt?!?! In spite of those doubts, my HOPE kept me focused and the word kept me trusting.

Romans 12:2

And do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. 

Why did I continue to trust in myself? I mean, I was doing a great job of going nowhere! I molded myself to this world believing what I had been told. If it feels good, do it and/or “Just do it!” Right…that was really working well for me thus far! How well is that method working for you? Yet again, even though I knew my way was not working, I was so scared to turn it all around. I was scared to really give all that control away. hope3If I am being honest with myself and with you, I was really scared to know the real me or the me I thought was going to be there. Was I good enough? Can you tell I was holding onto that control as long as I could?! Could I really give up that control? Could I really give away what comforted me? It was so dark, so lonely and I was so tired. I was SO tired of faking life and thinking everything was okay and even worthitworse making everyone else think my life was okay. I had a lot of “why” questions, but only one answer kept coming to the forefronts of my mind… Once I received the HOPE I was searching for, turning is what seemed natural to do, no matter how much I wanted to fight it.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart.  And do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways, acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.

 No, I don’t have all the answers, but I know Someone who does. Someone far greater than anyone in this world. I am so relieved I can live today and not worry about tomorrow. turndirectionblogpicThere is so much pain and suffering as it is! Why add more to our daily lives? We can be FREE! We do not have to look ahead. How about you? Are you ready to be FREE? Are you ready to reach out and give us a call? The team at Recovery Through Rediscovery is here with open arms ready to walk with you through your journey from addiction. We hope you seek the challenge of living life one day at a time, knowing we do not have to have all the answers. We cannot wait to hear from you!

 God Bless!!

The Smallest GRAIN of Faith

Matthew 17:20 And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I confidentfaith.jpgsay to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.”

Yes, there is HOPE! And this verse tells me so. A “little” MUSTARD SEED OF FAITH is all you need to maintain the hope we strive to keep through life’s trials and tribulations. Life is not easy. It never has been and it never will be. Different situations arise all the time and we all deal with these circumstances differently. Once I let go of my pride and admitted I was powerless, I gave it all over to God. The control that has been an issue for me took great focus on God to let go of and a tremendous amount of FAITH in Him to see me through. In actually releasing everything over to God, there is relief. I know that no matter what happens, God has everything under control.   So, I stay in constant prayer, I journal and I talk with others I trust to help me through the struggles. This is an extraordinary change, not trusting in myself but in what scripture tells me. In 2 Corinthians 12:9 we read, “And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.’ Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.” I feel the POWER in this verse! Can you feel the power? I am weak and I can boast about it! Through MY WEAKNESS, I find HIS POWER to keep moving forward and to live the life I have been called by HIM to live. Hope and faith are two of the many beautiful promises we have been given by the grace of God. His hand is stretched out for us to grasp, to walk with Him as He leads us down the paths He has set for us. We DO NOT know what is ahead, but we DO KNOW we can have the help we need if we will just LET GO and LET GOD (have faith.)

Philippians 4:13 “For I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”

My hope in starting Recovery Through Rediscovery is that I may reach out to others who want to find the hope they are seeking, to be lifted out of an abysmal life of hopelessness and to show them, with compassion and love, that it can be done. There is no shame here. We all have stories of the past and I would love the opportunity to hear yours, all the while learning beneficial ways to get through this life. I saw a quote today which stated: Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain. Come travel your journey with us! We are here with our hands out and ready to hold on through your journey, RAIN OR SHINE. I am reaching out and hope to hear from you soon!

hopeindarkness.jpgPhilippians 1:6 “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”

 

God Bless

I am POWERLESS

Yes, I am POWERLESS. Wow, that one statement is HARD to say to yourself, much less admit to others! I am reminded of the verse that says, “Pride ends in a fall, while humility brings honor.”  (Proverbs 29:23).

As I stated last week, coming out of denial was a whole new experience for me. Actually feeling my feelings and working through each feeling that came my way was enlightening. There is freedom in experiencing all the emotions God has given us, processing them as they come, praying for understanding and giving all circumstances over to God. When coming out of denial, I was told to “stop denying the pain.” It’s okay to hurt, be angry, get frustrated, burst with happiness and truly live feeling all of the emotions God has given us. I had to stop denying I had feelings and YES, deal with the pain that I was causing others and the pain others were causing me. I was so blinded by my own need for control as well as the constant fear and anxiety of trying to prove to myself that everything was fine. I really thought if I didn’t say anything, no one would know and you know what, they didn’t for the most part. All these feelings I was keeping buried in myself were literally killing me with stress, anxiety, worry, fear, resentment, and anger. Once I took off the mask and started being honest with myself and with God that my life had become unmanageable, I was finally able to be honest with others. I admitted I was and I am POWERLESS.  There went my PRIDE!  I was able to stand up and admit, “Life is not easy. I am drowning. I need God!”

“Pity me, O Lord, for I am weak. Heal me, for my body is sick, and I am upset and disturbed. My mind is filled with apprehension and with gloom”. (Psalms 6:2-3)

Soon, I found there were others eager to pray for me, to love me, and to walk with me.  I learned of others who were struggling with the same things I was struggling with. The more I let go, the more I understood God wants us to be there for one another and not standing alone.

“Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor. For if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion. But woe to the one who falls when there is not another to lift him up”. (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)

Releasing ALL over to God has given me freedom, hope, and a firm rock to stand on while living through life’s trials and tribulations. Let’s face it, we all have days that are just hard to get through, but we do not have to go through them alone any longer. Take the mask off! Trust that God has everything under control and will see you through whatever you are going through.  We are all POWERLESS.  He still loves us despite that. No matter how I try to control my day and/or my life, I am always brought back by knowing Who is before me. I love the song Already There by Casting Crowns. The words ring so true. See them below in bold!

From where I’m standing Lord it’s so hard for me to see Where this is goin’ And where You’re leading me I wish I knew how All my fears and all my questions Are gonna play out In a world I can’t control

When I’m lost in the mystery To You my future is a memory Cause You’re already there You’re already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And You’re already there You’re already there

From where You’re standing Lord, You see a grand design That You imagined When You breathed me into life And all the chaos Comes together in Your hands Like a masterpiece Of Your picture perfect plan When I’m lost in the mystery To You my future is a memory Cause You’re already there You’re already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And You’re already there You’re already there

One day I’ll stand before you And look back on the life I’ve lived I can’t wait to enjoy the view And see how all the pieces fit One day I’ll stand before you Look back on the life I’ve lived Cause You’re already there You’re already there When I’m lost in the mystery To you my future is a memory Cause you’re already there Already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And you’re already there You’re already there

May God bless you all. Please, if we can help in any way, give us a call. You can also send me an email. I am ready whenever you are! To God be the glory!

Denial…

I have been a Christian a long time. I thought myself well versed in scripture and how to live life. However, through God’s revealing truth I learned something about myself that would end up changing my life forever. I realized I was in complete and utter DENIAL. What is denial? The dictionary defines denial as the action of declaring something to be untrue. I was sinking down into an abyss when I first learned of the addiction my child was consumed with. I was desperately seeking any kind of help I could find.  Then, a sister in Christ introduced me to a recovery program. I went out of desperation to learn how to fix the problem in my child’s life. When I left, I thought, I am not one of “those people”. I did not return for months. Again, I became desperate after trying everything in my power to fix the problem and getting nowhere. That is when I went back to the recovery program. After going several months, I began to learn and truly understand I did not need to fix my child, but I needed to fix myself. I was so lost in my need for control, the anxiety I felt constantly, the fear of what may happen, and the doubt that constantly plagued my mind. I could not see my true self much less how I put God in a compartment and pulled Him out at my convenience. I now know things, events, and circumstances happen to us in life and blinds us to truth. Addiction is not linked solely to alcohol or drugs alone. Addiction has many, many forms that in essence become the idols in our lives.

“For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.” (Romans 7:18)

As I was coming out of denial I actually began to feel emotions I had never felt before and to be honest I did not want to be feeling them. I was feeling anger, frustration, hurt, sadness, and doubt. I fought a good fight, though and tried to remain in denial. I was so used to burying these feelings by controlling my life and the lives of others around me. I just kept trying to take back the control. I now understand that by remaining in denial, I kept myself from the true person God intended me to be. I was living my life trying to control everyone and trying to fix everything around me. This was making me fearful and anxious because things were not going the way I thought they should go. I was worn out and frankly was getting nowhere. I then realized this was keeping me from growing in my faith and relationships with my family and others.

In time I learned God can manage everything perfectly and to His glory. There are still days that I struggle with my fears, doubts and anxiety, but now I know how to keep God first and foremost in my life. He is awesome and I love watching Him work in me and in the lives of everyone around me.

Are you in denial? Do you have struggles you would like to get off your chest? Do you want to rid yourself of the overwhelming? Does it all seem lost? I was there too. I am here to pray and listen. I am here to help you take a leap of faith. If I can help, please leave me a message!

“God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with Him yet walk in darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin.” (1 John 1:5-7)

Until next time…

God Bless