Yes, I am POWERLESS. Wow, that one statement is HARD to say to yourself, much less admit to others! I am reminded of the verse that says, “Pride ends in a fall, while humility brings honor.” (Proverbs 29:23).
As I stated last week, coming out of denial was a whole new experience for me. Actually feeling my feelings and working through each feeling that came my way was enlightening. There is freedom in experiencing all the emotions God has given us, processing them as they come, praying for understanding and giving all circumstances over to God. When coming out of denial, I was told to “stop denying the pain.” It’s okay to hurt, be angry, get frustrated, burst with happiness and truly live feeling all of the emotions God has given us. I had to stop denying I had feelings and YES, deal with the pain that I was causing others and the pain others were causing me. I was so blinded by my own need for control as well as the constant fear and anxiety of trying to prove to myself that everything was fine. I really thought if I didn’t say anything, no one would know and you know what, they didn’t for the most part. All these feelings I was keeping buried in myself were literally killing me with stress, anxiety, worry, fear, resentment, and anger. Once I took off the mask and started being honest with myself and with God that my life had become unmanageable, I was finally able to be honest with others. I admitted I was and I am POWERLESS. There went my PRIDE! I was able to stand up and admit, “Life is not easy. I am drowning. I need God!”
“Pity me, O Lord, for I am weak. Heal me, for my body is sick, and I am upset and disturbed. My mind is filled with apprehension and with gloom”. (Psalms 6:2-3)
Soon, I found there were others eager to pray for me, to love me, and to walk with me. I learned of others who were struggling with the same things I was struggling with. The more I let go, the more I understood God wants us to be there for one another and not standing alone.
“Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor. For if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion. But woe to the one who falls when there is not another to lift him up”. (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)
Releasing ALL over to God has given me freedom, hope, and a firm rock to stand on while living through life’s trials and tribulations. Let’s face it, we all have days that are just hard to get through, but we do not have to go through them alone any longer. Take the mask off! Trust that God has everything under control and will see you through whatever you are going through. We are all POWERLESS. He still loves us despite that. No matter how I try to control my day and/or my life, I am always brought back by knowing Who is before me. I love the song Already There by Casting Crowns. The words ring so true. See them below in bold!
From where I’m standing Lord it’s so hard for me to see Where this is goin’ And where You’re leading me I wish I knew how All my fears and all my questions Are gonna play out In a world I can’t control
When I’m lost in the mystery To You my future is a memory Cause You’re already there You’re already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And You’re already there You’re already there
From where You’re standing Lord, You see a grand design That You imagined When You breathed me into life And all the chaos Comes together in Your hands Like a masterpiece Of Your picture perfect plan When I’m lost in the mystery To You my future is a memory Cause You’re already there You’re already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And You’re already there You’re already there
One day I’ll stand before you And look back on the life I’ve lived I can’t wait to enjoy the view And see how all the pieces fit One day I’ll stand before you Look back on the life I’ve lived Cause You’re already there You’re already there When I’m lost in the mystery To you my future is a memory Cause you’re already there Already there Standing at the end of my life Waiting on the other side And you’re already there You’re already there
May God bless you all. Please, if we can help in any way, give us a call. You can also send me an email. I am ready whenever you are! To God be the glory!